Peggy's day!

*peggy is a born singer!*my new found friend~Peggy!!*introducing pretty Peggy!*

*Glam photo!*see-who-faster!*ros, dun disturb bussie pegs*

*peggy can pose!*love the Neoprints!*ros, u again! dun peep when pegs showering!*

Finally I get to meet Peggy! She is so so pretty! Her skin is so good, fair too!!!

Went to sing at K-Box! Wow she can sing so well!!! Love her voice. Must learn new songs fast fast so that I can go again!

After that, we took Neoprints!!! Really like that: Peggy *dian si wo* pose.. So classic!

Nice day hanging out with her! Thank you, Peggy for this wonderful day!

super hyper day out!

Neoprint that we took! Love it.. Always had a super fun time with Jos!

*pretty us*new haircut!*at Tiong Bahru*

*roy n ros full*yummy fish steamboat!!*jos craving for more!*

*my fav look~ban ke lian*jos ask roy to look at my ke lian look*act cute me n pretty jos*

Met up with a-new-haircut Jos to go shopping! It is my first time been to Spotlight! So mountain tortise hor.. By the way, Jos looks nice!

Will go back Spotlight to buy more things to DIY my stuffs!!

Took Neoprints too had fun hiding inside to take pics!

Then she had her eyebrow shaped at Hollywood secrets! At first I got a shock! Her eyebrow makes her look fierce!! But after re-drawing by my skillful hands, she looks so much better!!

Knew she was kinda upset over her eyebrow.. But after she got her choker, everything is fun again!

Shopped till 9 plus! Poor Roy got to wait for us till then to have dinner. Went to eat yummy *yu tou lou* I drink the soup till empty... *yummy* I slurped and slurped... Pouring heavily, drinking hot soup... enjoying life!

Had a great fun time hiding inside the Neoprint machine to take pics!!!

excited with Jos's prom!

when breaking the news is hard

AMD

Learnt Advanced Medical Directive in school but didn't realised its importance until today....

Was asked by a Doctor to help translate for him.. Got to break the news to a terminally ill patient. (cos I'm the only Mandarin and Hokkien speaking on that shift)

Uncle is very ill and need to decide what options to choose. (in case he can't make decisions by then it is too late)

(1) Spared from suffering and let him go peacefully.

(2) Extraordinary life-sustaining treatment to prolong his life.

Spend talking for about 1 hour... Can you imagine? Asking him how he wishes to die? He wants to know how long he has to live.. and he keeps wanting to die at home. How long he has, no one knows... Maybe later, maybe few months, or he may even recover as a response to the medications.. And he can't go home... If the oxygen and the drug is discontinued, his condition will deterioate definitely.

I find myself very lousy in Hokkien thus I am worried that he don't understand what I am saying.. So I keep on reinforcing the important words to him.. By then, I started weeping but still got to brave a strong front to him.. Luckily my mask concealed most of my sorrow..

Uncle didn't cry but when I place my hands near his frail chest wall to comfort him, his heart palpitated. So sad lor!!

He asked me to call his sister to visit him.. I'm so glad.. An excuse to go out.. The moment I am out, I burst into tears and couldn't stop!! Dr told me I did a good job.. Though he cannot understand, he knows I'm trying hard.. putting effort. So many of my fellow colleagues comfort me too!! Sister Lai told me she helped Doctors explained AMD for few times. It is hard everytime she did that! So at least I feel human!

After calling his sister to visit him, I went in again for his decision... If he choose the 1st one, he had to sign th AMD form to declare he doesn't wants intubation..

When he sign, I cried again.. Felt guilty, worried and scared. If he mis-interpret me how? Then I will be gulit stricken for life..

I asked him few times if he understand me then can sign.. he knew completely what I told him.

He signed for it.. I stayed with him for a while..

Then he said he wanted to sleep... I left him alone..

I continued to be depressed...

Hope he gets well.. I'm sure he will..

This entry was supposed to post on real time.. I was in dilemma...

To post or not to..

Happy moments are supposed to be remembered..

For this incident, it is my first experience.. Wanted to share this to my beloved companions.

What I had learnt:

"Treasure those people close to you and spend quality time with them... Don't wait till then it's too late, you start to regret..."

sing till we drop!

*cutie xiao wan zi so engrossed*posing*qian qian-singing for me*
*she's such a dear*Leong-K~King*blur blur*
*yey~satisfied*silly ping*DoRaeMi*



Finally! Singing and singing! The pple at K Box are so super friendly!! Apparently they remembered Leong-K~King and they allowed us to stay much longer than usual!!! WOW 5 hours k?? Hmmm... Learnt few new songs too! (Sarah clapping hands)
We sang along, cheered for each other too. Heheee can sing Liu Ruo Ying's song... Seems like Sarah going ga-ga over Jay!!! Love him!!! Will sweep all his album as a collector's item liao!
So happy! Thank you guys for the wonderful K session!

Hungry Sasha

Eloise finally gives Sasha a trim!! She looks cute now. Need to take photos of her!!

~the warmest hug~

Thank you Josephine!! It is a very nice card! Your handwriting is super nice!!!
This card really warms my heart....
It is supposed to be my fault!!! I have hurt you by saying those harsh words! I really don't mean it.. Sorry!
Guess I'm super drown in my own problems..
Do you know, I was super terrified when I saw that sad look on your face.. So sorry once again.
Me really appreciate what you did.. You really made my day!

Sarah can't drink!

*soak buay all dressed up*me n soak buay*we are high!!*almost drunk!*

Had a good day with Soak Buay, Guardian Angel, Nursing Consultant and FnB manager!
Surprised to find a place at Ngee Ann Polytechnic! Cosy, cheap, wide selection of food!

Then walked to Halo bar to have our favourite gathering drink: Red Wine!!

We sure enjoyed ourselves with bottles and bottles!

After that, I'm crying, laughing and talking nonsense on my way home.. Poor Roy!

Hahahaa... Wonderful nite, too bad got to work the next day.

Reflections

Sometimes when you get too routine in your work life, you tend to overlook certain things that in the first place you pursue for..

Today, this incident really touched my heart and I felt the urge to post it.
Por por is weak and didn't really like to talk.. Eveytime when I changed her diapers, the one thing I do before I leave her is to *sayang* her face.. For the past two nights, she must have remembered me. Just now, after cleaning her up, she held my hand close to her face and gave me a gentle kiss. Though she didn't said anything, she smiled at me. Seeing that weak face of hers, makes me want to cry. She has limited strength but she made an effort to thank me....
The effort of hers re-energised me, made me realised why I join nursing and these are the *tui dong li* that gets me going.. I should be the one to thank you por por..

It is a great idea of allowing the moments to catch you and you allowing yourself to reflect in lifes, gifts and the ways in which you have delt with each event in your life. Good or bad its always healthy to perge in your thoughts.

The Right Words~for Roy

Even though, we are together for long, I still cannot express myself fully to you.
Lately, I have been thinking... From the first day we met.. till now.
I am filled with doubts. I have never had something that fills me so completely. That belongs to me and only me. I am afraid now. I have so much to lose. To me, you are everything.

3 years ago, I remebered you as the handsome, un-reachable friendly guy, who loves to give advice to people..
At that time, my love life is in total chaos.. It is in you, I found the hope to carry on. How miracally we got together! Just the decision to forgo your birthday movie: Bruce Almighty and .. we are an item.
At that time, I felt that our relationship is so fragile. As the matter of fact, there is no courtship, no flowers, no dating. It gave me an insecure feeling that you are not sincere.. But throughout these years, you proved me wrong..

You stood by me when I'm down with problems at family, work and friends.
You tolerated my temper by giving in to me first, then settle the problem later.
You controlled your temper - if both of us are head strong, direct conflicts will start.
You knew that when I flare up I would say hurtful words and you choose to ignore, forgive and forget.
You did not despise my handicap and you even help me overcome it..

These are the words that I wished I could say to you at all times. To let you know I appreciated you by my side.

I could not always find the right time and words to express my feelings to you..

Now, your wound infection is worrying me. I felt so helpless now.

Stupid bacteria that infect your wound! I hope they will have a horrible death tomorrow with the debridment and antibiotics.

So you take good care of yourself.

The Tinkerbell jigsaw puzzle is waiting.

I still want you to tuck me to bed.

I want you to make me smile by singing that irritating Chinese version song of Chicken Little..

I also want to win that : "see your t-shirt and I snapped your nose and face" trick.

I am still waiting for you to decide our choice of our future home: 4/5 room or Exec Condo.

Haha, and yes, I'm still waiting for you to be on your knees hor!

something unique, sweet and one in the world

I'm so happy today!!! Spoonky nailed it! I like the surprise alot!!
He made my day..
I'm going to hug him close tonite..
:D

Surprise

Ah Roy is planning a surprise for me!!! Hmmmm he is so clever now.. He told me I would definitely LOVE IT.. Seldom he is so confident of himself...
See what he is up to...

Hmmm, and need to add something..
Think I had cause some misunderstanding that had upset me..
Why I always so stupid? Sometimes I just do things in a rush way...
Hope I won't cause anymore trouble to myself..

sssttrreesseeddd aaattt wwwoorrkkk

*her dinner*my yummy black pepper sphagetti*ICE-CREAM!!*tinkerbell*

Met up with Denise today!! We are both NIC ( nurse in charge) Super tired! My preceptee got called away and one of my colleague took MC! Left with 5 nurses to take care of 37 patients! Tired... Decided to go for dinner and ice-cream.... (cos super warm in subsidized ward) SWENSEN HERE WE COME! Nice venting some of my frustration to her!!

After that went to CWP to buy jigsaw puzzle!! Darling Roy said he wanted to make one for us. I'm in charge of choosing the pic. Tinkerbell!! No doubt about it.. Will post out the finished product soon!!

My new friend!

This is her name.. Made her write on this paper.. She is only 6 years old!! Not bad yah?

Vivien said *twist* when I took this pic! New word I learnt!

So we twist together!

WOW! Can see her tonsils!

I made a new friend today!! Isn't she pretty?
Viven came up to me while I'm at work. She talk and talk and talk... So cute...
Decided to take pics with her and her ye ye said ok! She is so lively and even pose when I asked her to..
After that, developed the pics for her and bought lollipops for her. Kids love that rite? Then she refuses to go home... Hahahh she likes me! Yah she super happy...
And me? I'm happy too. She brightens up my day!

Sasha join in for a shot!

Sasha so cute!!! But refused to pose properly..

SASHA!!!!

Sasha don't know how to pose!! But love all these photos.. Especially the one she kiss me... Catch Spoonky watching her!!!
Sasha loves Spoonky very much... Everytime when he goes to my house, Sasha is the first one to welcome him... then she will stick to him! Physically!!! She would *sai nai* lor. Worse than me!!